College.

[readingredhead]

Is anyone else completely weirded out by the fact that we're actually applying to college? Like this is the one thing our lives have been leading up to and hingeing on and now all of a sudden we're at the juncture before we knew we were? It kind of freaks me out. I wish that we could all go where we wanted to go and receive the education we need, and mostly that we would all be happy.

The thing is, my career path isn't one of academic rigor -- at least, it doesn't need to be. I could easily get a job as a non-honors English teacher and write on the side while going to a community collge. But I wouldn't be happy, not at all -- I've had it ingrained that college is the place to be once high school's done, and also it seems like something I need. I already feel sometimes like I'm ready to take that next big step and venture out into the world on my own...that's what college is. A place to find myself a bit more every day.

So while I could go easy with college if I wanted, there's no way that I'll ever want to do anything easy.

I think sometimes that's part of my problem, but most of the time it's part of my personality, so for now I'll let it be.

Comments

[comment5.livejournal.com]

Aw.

[bluephoenix8807.livejournal.com]

I hate how we've been preparing for these days for our entire school careers and we've only got two short months to do all the applying.

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

So true.

[spadleader88.livejournal.com]

aye. freaks me out. no me gusta the process but i'm ready to get out of here. like you, theres no way i want to take it easy in college. have fun, yes. but screw off, no.

adn that would be why we're in AP/IB...

[cucumber-eyes89.livejournal.com]

It honestly seemed like it would be a lot HARDER of a process when we were little. It's tedious, but... not... HARD.

And I agree with you. It's always been 2 plus 2 for me. Graduate high school, go to college. Slowly realizing that isn't the way everyone does it. Is there something... anything to be desired in community colleges? Just wondering?

You make me think. This is good.
I speak good.

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

For me, community college is too much of the same thing. Same city, same level of difficutly (if not easier!) than high school...a little too close to home for me, at least. No change of scene, no newness. No chance to change your life.

But that's just my opinion -- how it works for me. I understand when others decide to go to community colleges; it just doesn't seem like a viable alternative for me.

[comment5.livejournal.com]

Don't do this now. You're so... sane. Huge letdown if you weren't.

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm still sane. Just weirded out.

[i-wear-wellies.livejournal.com]

Crazy, isn't it?