AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!

[readingredhead]

I feel so unbelievably stupid right now, it's not even funny.

So I got in all of my stuff to Stanford way earlier than I needed to, right? Because I wanted to be sure that I met the deadlines. And then, all of a sudden, the day that early decision apps are due, everything's falling apart. I went to the admissions website to make sure that I'd submitted everything -- and it turns out I haven't? Apparently you're supposed to submit a CSS profile? I didn't even know about this until today, and it wasn't on the application anywhere -- it was hidden in the back of the deadlines FAQ on the admission website! It really pisses me off!

And then, I realized that I probably have to send in a score report to Stanford, but what I'd heard from the admissions director when I was there over the summer made it sound like they would request our score report from college board or whatever? But then I read to the bottom and it said to make sure that you get your score reports send in on time!

I'm staying home from Mock Trial tonight to see if I can get this all done. Thankfully, Stanford's west coast -- if it was East coast, I'd have three less hours to "officially" get it all in on time.

But still...I spent so much damn time getting ready and making sure that I wouldn't have to stress the day of...all for this? Am I the only one who finds it all just a little absurd? Thankfully, homework for tonight isn't that bad -- in fact, it's practically nonexistent.

I just hate it that I had a wonderful day, and now here it is all going to pieces. Why do things like this happen?!

And yes, I'm worried to hell and back about my application to Stanford. It's the one place that I really want to go. It used to be my first choice only by a hair, but now it's without a doubt the school. And I'm worried that somehow, all of this shit will keep me from getting in -- not because I don't deserve it, but on the issue of freaking technicalities! What's up with that?

All of this stuff is so bullshit. I swear, it's a ploy to make you not get into college.

This is all so effed up. It would be really great if I could kill things right now -- preferably Stanford Admissions directors.

EDIT 7:21 PM

So it turns out that, after all this shit, I didn't actually have to do the profile after all! WTF?! Apparently they want info from our 2006 tax returns, which don't get filed until January. And when I checked Princeton's app, they have a specific notice stating that early action applicants don't have to complete the CSS profile because the information needed to complete it is not available by November 1.

Like I may have said in a comment below, it feel shittier to have not needed to do this. If it'd been necessary and vital, I wouldn't have minded that it wasted my entire day. But it wasn't. I spent several hours worrying about something that didn't matter at all. I missed Mock Trial for it, I didn't do homework or focus on anything -- and for what?

I still would like to attack some admissions officers...but now for different reasons. I don't even feel relieved that I don't have to get the form in -- all I feel is stupid.

Comments

[comment5.livejournal.com]

I see none of the things you speak of.

Oh well!

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

AAARG. Can the dinosaurs kill the people who create confounding directions/instructions? My Princeton app form says that they don't expect CSS profiles from early decision candidates, becuase the profile can't be filled out before Nov. 1! It really pisses me off because I hate stressing over unnecessary things, but how could I know that this was unnecessary?

As I said, killing people sounds satisfying. GRRR.

[comment5.livejournal.com]

Stanford is need-blind in acceptance. What do they need the CSS for unless you get in?

You did everything you could to get in because you honestly think Stanford is a good fit for you. You turned in the application already, so it is too late to change anything (believe me, I regret a few things I wrote). There is nothing at all for you to do but sit back and wait to get accepted. That's what I'm doing. One of the questions should have been "What do you plan to do if not accepted?" Why, join Grisha out in the middle of nowhere.

If they don't accept you, they're not taking anyone. :-)

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I hate the way that I get when I'm stressed. It's like I can't even speak English anymore, let alone think in complete and coherent sentences devoid of curse words.

Hopefully, this stress episode means my quota for the month is filled and the rest of November will be stress-free!

[comment5.livejournal.com]

Indeed.

[fallenrose24.livejournal.com]

*hugs* oh wow...I'm really sorry this had to happen. I do hope things turn out alright.

Try to keep your mind set on the good things of today. Dwelling in the bad, even if it's current, will only make any situation seem worse than it is. Believe me, I had a similar problem today with having a good day and the it suddenly falling apart.

It happens and knowing you, you'll find a way to rise above it.

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the hugs, but it turns out I (maybe) don't need them? After filling out almost all of the Profile, my dad realized they want 2006 tax returns -- which aren't filed until January. We tried to submit the thing without the 2006 data, but it wouldn't. Then he came to the conclusion that the dates were wrong? So I basically ran around like a chicken with my head cut off for nothing. And you know what? It feels worse than if I'd needed to get this turned in.

[i-wear-wellies.livejournal.com]

*hugs* well, at least you know it's not being considered incomplete for that. If it makes you feel any better, I thought I had a week to finish all my applications, then I found out they were due before midnight that day. And I hadn't started them, and had to go hunt down four years worth of grade reports (and considering my mom's organization, that took several hours), and fill out the applications and everything.

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

Okay, you win the prize. I'll stop feeling sorry for myself. :)

[cucumber-eyes89.livejournal.com]

-hugs- Sorry, doll.