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I've been doing a lot of procrastinating lately. For instance, it's 5:15 right now and I haven't touched my homework, despite the fact that I've got a few things to do -- Spanish, Calculus -- and an MUN conference to prepare for.

The thing is, I can't get myself worked up over doing work. It's a bad thing, because it's not going to get any better as the school year progresses, but I'm just in a bit of a slump right now. I hope it's just because I'm sick, and that it's not going to become a habit, but I've got my worries.

I'm not going to stop doing things -- I don't think that would be possible. I'm not going to stop doing my work and getting it done. But I'm also going to not be completely productive for a while, I fear.

I've been struck lately with an odd desire to write fanfiction. No particular fandom, no actual plot -- just the drive to have lots of people I don't know in the real world review my story and reaffirm how important I am. The instant gratification of reviews is why I stopped writing fanfiction in the first place, and I'm not about to return to it, but this is the first time in a long time that I've wanted to.

Slightly random though this is, I'm kind of annoyed with having to switch groups in humanities. I really liked the old Group A -- we had some decent people, and we all worked really well together. I understand the groups needed to be split up a bit, but I don't see why it was done so drastically. Is there supposed to be something wrong with letting us hang out with the people we like? Reminds me of Anthem: Transgression of Preference?

Lots of things have been reminding me of books lately. For instance, Beauty and the Beast somehow has been connected in my mind to Jane Eyre and Pride and Prejudice? And werewolves? This is what happens when you decide to do a new take on an old story -- time pollution kicks in and all of the thoughs and theories that weren't around when the story was first told clamor to be included in the new version.

I've got an MUN conference this weekend -- well, Friday and Saturday. On the one hand, I don't want to go, but on the other I'll be glad to attend. It's Huntington Beach MUN, which isn't overly challenging.

I'm also considering whether I want to take part in tomorrow's Humanities talent show. If anything, I'd just recite a poem -- one of Shakespeare's sonnets, probably? I've become rather partial to "Let me not to the marriage of true minds," because I love the sentiments expressed. Oh Will, why so good? You make the rest of us look like tongueless fools.

Maybe I've spent enough time procrastinating now. Maybe I'll go do something worthwhile now. Or maybe I'll go memorize a sonnet. Either way, I'll go do something.

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"just the drive to have lots of people I don't know in the real world review my story and reaffirm how important I am."
..basically it. I wish there could be sites for original creative writing that were actually large enough to get a substantial amount of replies (or maybe I don't, because then I might start to write only for recognition, and not just in fanfiction).

I was sad that the groups changed and happy at the same time. Sad because I actually didn't know anybody in the old group A all that well (I knew of most of you guys, but I didn't know you), and I discovered how much I like a lot of them/you. I'm happy because I'm hoping that the same thing will happen in group C now (fingers crossed, though), but it's less likely because everyone has already formed their groups in there. I miss a lot of the people from A, though.

I posted a few things on fictionpress.com for a while (a fanfiction spinoff for original work) but somehow all the stuff on there isn't that good. And I think I'm glad -- it means that, like it or not, I have to learn to write for myself.

I know what you mean about the group thing being good and bad. I *know* everyone in Humanities, if we mean "know" as in "am acquainted with," but it takes more than half a year to get to really know people, and so now there's two groups of people I won't get to know as well as I wish...? But probably I should stop complaining and then everything will be all right.

Half a year isn't long enough, true, but then is a year long enough? People are going to college in a few months, and I made myself not be sad by thinking that I will find a way to keep in contact with the people who I enjoyed talking to, and those who I don't, I would lose in four months anyway.

Which is actually more depressing now that I think it through. Haha. Oh well. We'll all be together in the little theatre.

Speaking of which, I'm not going to be at school tomorrow, and I am surprised at how upset I am that I will miss the talent show. I am severly dissapointed. I didn't realize I was looking forward to it that much.

Is that how you spell severly? Severely? I cannot think right now. And it is really bugging me.

Choice #2 would be the correct one.

Well, that means there's one person who didn't see me screw up Shakespeare. I had a sonnet memorized but when I got to this one line I totally blanked. I knew the rest of the lines, just not that one!!! So I sat down. Of course now I'll never forget that line for the rest of my life...which I guess is a good thing?