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[readingredhead]

Argh I seriously need to stop thinking about this but the internet is evil and provides me with all sorts of tools, which have allowed me to discern the following facts:

1. There are exactly 14 Fulbright grants to the UK available this year, which means that I am actually one of 21-28 students forwarded into the final round, which is a MUCH SMALLER NUMBER than I had previously assumed.

2. Fulbright UK has notified all students of their decisions on March 15 for the past few years.

3. All of the PhD programs I have applied to will notify on or before March 15, which means that when I go to New York and Cambridge this spring break, I'll already know which programs I've been accepted to.

4. UC Berkeley's English department has already started sending out PhD acceptances and I haven't received one yet.

Is there a way that I could just forget everything about grad school and Fulbright applications, only to remember it suddenly on March 15, by which point I will have received all of my notifications?

THIS MAY BE MORE STRESSFUL THAN UNDERGRAD.

I think I need some tea. Stat.

Comments

[hodgetopodge.livejournal.com]

You are going to go to graduate school. Someone else is going to pay for it.

[alexandria-skye.livejournal.com]

everything is going to work out; you will end up where you are supposed to be and life will be wonderful. take a deep breath, make yourself some tea, and take at least an hour to read or write something that makes you happy.

i've been meaning to tell you this for a few days, so here i go: i really admire you. you are a smart, creative, motivated, and altogether beautiful human being. ♥

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

I can't tell if that's real prognostication or Jedi mind tricks. But thanks either way. :)

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You know, you're a smart, creative, motivated, and beautiful human being too. I'll do something awesome for an hour if you will! :) (Actually, I'm about to go work on my thesis for an hour and pretend that I enjoy it -- but who knows, if I pretend hard enough I'll probably start liking it! And I will definitely like being done with it.)

[w455up.livejournal.com]

All the stress is probably due to understanding the grad school acceptance system better than you understood the undergrad acceptances. Ignorance is bliss, but knowledge is power, so at least you're powerful while stressed out.

PS I too have often wished that I could wake up from a living coma, my unconscious mind taking over normal daily function while my consciousness hibernates and time travels into a world where, say, the Song of Ice and Fire series has been completed. You are not alone.

-Teng

[readingredhead.livejournal.com]

Hah! If you figure out that suspended consciousness thing, let me know. (Not gonna lie, that is why I stopped reading Song of Ice and Fire after the second book -- I'm going to wait until I can have them all!)

[umdnikoell.livejournal.com]

Stress is part of fear. We love you!

Have no fear,
Nicole