The trouble is...
May. 7th, 2007 01:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
readingredheadThe problem with me and writing is that I'm a perfectionist. Perfect example of this: I made 3 typos in the first sentence of this post, and instead of just leaving them for the spellcheck to catch, I had to go back right after I made each one and fix it. It means I don't forget, but it also means that I lose my train of thought, so that the stream of consciousness approach to life is immediately lost. I have to be typing quite quickly in order to maintain a constant speed and be able to not look back at the typos, but it's difficult.
This is why this is a problem: I've got less than a week to write that short story for Julie, but I keep not wanting to start it because I don't know quite how it starts. I know all about the characters, I know exactly what happens to the greatest extent that I can without having written the damn thing, but I can't bring myself to write it. It's almost like I don't want to write it, which is a complete lie, because I love the concept of this story and I know it won't leave me alone if I never write it. But it's more than that...there's something that keeps me away from it. A lot of somethings, in all honesty. School, procrastination, friends, family...all of it takes me away from my writing. And I haven't been freewriting as much because when I'm freewriting, I feel like I'm procrastinating and I should be doing something else.
And then I waste time complaining online or to myself or to my family that this is so hard and I don't know when I'll find the time to do it when actually all I need to do is shut up, sit down, and WRITE, dammit!
This is why this is a problem: I've got less than a week to write that short story for Julie, but I keep not wanting to start it because I don't know quite how it starts. I know all about the characters, I know exactly what happens to the greatest extent that I can without having written the damn thing, but I can't bring myself to write it. It's almost like I don't want to write it, which is a complete lie, because I love the concept of this story and I know it won't leave me alone if I never write it. But it's more than that...there's something that keeps me away from it. A lot of somethings, in all honesty. School, procrastination, friends, family...all of it takes me away from my writing. And I haven't been freewriting as much because when I'm freewriting, I feel like I'm procrastinating and I should be doing something else.
And then I waste time complaining online or to myself or to my family that this is so hard and I don't know when I'll find the time to do it when actually all I need to do is shut up, sit down, and WRITE, dammit!
