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readingredheadI am sick of not wanting to write my history paper. It's disgusting how much I don't even want to look at it. By the time I get to Pride and Prejudice I'll probably be ready to cry out in relief.
The problem is that I'm writing the history paper about literary sources -- poems -- and so I want to analyze them as literary sources. Except it's a history class and a history paper so I need to analyze them as histocial sources, and it's killing me because I don't think I can do that in a decent enough way. I've been putting off this paper all day, and before that I had been putting it off all afternoon. I've been sitting in the library for nearly two hours trying to figure out what I'm writing about, and each time I think I figure something out I remember that I hate it.
This isn't exactly productive, either. Of course it's not. I don't want to be productive. I want to be at home for the weekend already!
But I need to write the paper because it's due in a week.
And I wouldn't be putting nearly so much effort into this if it weren't for the fact that I'm afraid I'll let my GSI down.
I hate this.
The problem is that I'm writing the history paper about literary sources -- poems -- and so I want to analyze them as literary sources. Except it's a history class and a history paper so I need to analyze them as histocial sources, and it's killing me because I don't think I can do that in a decent enough way. I've been putting off this paper all day, and before that I had been putting it off all afternoon. I've been sitting in the library for nearly two hours trying to figure out what I'm writing about, and each time I think I figure something out I remember that I hate it.
This isn't exactly productive, either. Of course it's not. I don't want to be productive. I want to be at home for the weekend already!
But I need to write the paper because it's due in a week.
And I wouldn't be putting nearly so much effort into this if it weren't for the fact that I'm afraid I'll let my GSI down.
I hate this.
