Renewal

Well, it's over.

Yes, it: Secretary General elections.

For some reason I am reminded of my freshman experiences in MUN; I am reminded of the first time that I met Ryan Villanueva, SG my freshman year. I remember looking up at him and knowing that I wanted to be him my senior year, if I could.

Now, that seems a whole lot harder. I still want SG...but it's not so easy. It's not so simple. Because there are other people who were running up there alongside me who I think need the position more than I do. Really, there's one other person. I think that you can figure out who that is; I'm not going to say it. But I just hope that whatever happens, our MUN program will run smoothly for the rest of the time I'm a part of it. I hope that if I am elected SG I will be able to do everything that I set out to do. I hope that I will be able to do it -- that the position won't overwhelm me completely...

I just don't know. I want everything to work out perfectly and I know that perfect doesn't happen. I want to be SG, but I don't even know why. And I'm afraid that others have better reasons than I do.

Really, I've moved past worrying about myself. Now, I think all of my concerns are for others...

But the more I type the more I think about things which will worry me more, so now I will stop.

I hope.

SG

So the results came in for who will be next year's SG, and it's Ricky, and I'm fine with it.

Really, I hope I would be fine with it, since I spent a lot of the previous entry worrying about how he'd take it if he lost. And since I was beginning to have my own doubts about my ability to hold the position. But really, I think that whether or not this is the best direction for our program, it will be good for Ricky. However much he shouldn't compete with his brother, he does. He doesn't need to: I am convinced he is a thoroughly better person.

A while ago I could have been satisfied with beating Ricky. In fact, I remember that during freshman year Claire and I started making a list of all of the things we could do that Ricky couldn't do as well. But my opinion of him has changed; my regard for him has grown. I am completely confident that, with him as our Secretary General, my senior year of MUN will be just as good as the past two and a half have been.

I'd write more, about my thoughts and impressions in the quasi-aftermath of the election, but I have a Physics test that I don't want to study for and a math test that I actually might want to study for, so I will be going for now.