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readingredheadWell, it's over.
Yes, it: Secretary General elections.
For some reason I am reminded of my freshman experiences in MUN; I am reminded of the first time that I met Ryan Villanueva, SG my freshman year. I remember looking up at him and knowing that I wanted to be him my senior year, if I could.
Now, that seems a whole lot harder. I still want SG...but it's not so easy. It's not so simple. Because there are other people who were running up there alongside me who I think need the position more than I do. Really, there's one other person. I think that you can figure out who that is; I'm not going to say it. But I just hope that whatever happens, our MUN program will run smoothly for the rest of the time I'm a part of it. I hope that if I am elected SG I will be able to do everything that I set out to do. I hope that I will be able to do it -- that the position won't overwhelm me completely...
I just don't know. I want everything to work out perfectly and I know that perfect doesn't happen. I want to be SG, but I don't even know why. And I'm afraid that others have better reasons than I do.
Really, I've moved past worrying about myself. Now, I think all of my concerns are for others...
But the more I type the more I think about things which will worry me more, so now I will stop.
I hope.
Yes, it: Secretary General elections.
For some reason I am reminded of my freshman experiences in MUN; I am reminded of the first time that I met Ryan Villanueva, SG my freshman year. I remember looking up at him and knowing that I wanted to be him my senior year, if I could.
Now, that seems a whole lot harder. I still want SG...but it's not so easy. It's not so simple. Because there are other people who were running up there alongside me who I think need the position more than I do. Really, there's one other person. I think that you can figure out who that is; I'm not going to say it. But I just hope that whatever happens, our MUN program will run smoothly for the rest of the time I'm a part of it. I hope that if I am elected SG I will be able to do everything that I set out to do. I hope that I will be able to do it -- that the position won't overwhelm me completely...
I just don't know. I want everything to work out perfectly and I know that perfect doesn't happen. I want to be SG, but I don't even know why. And I'm afraid that others have better reasons than I do.
Really, I've moved past worrying about myself. Now, I think all of my concerns are for others...
But the more I type the more I think about things which will worry me more, so now I will stop.
I hope.
