Okay?

So I thought I'd tell you -- I think I'm okay. I'm better than I was earlier, at any rate. I had a long conversation with one far-off friend, and an e-mail from another one, which really helped. Luke, I've said it before but I'll say it again: thanks for the story. And Katherine, thanks for just talking. I really ought to mail you Christmas/Solstice presents.

Homework stinks, as usual -- but at least it means the world goes on. I have this nagging feeling that I won't get anything done today. I just got back from doing some Christmas shopping, but I think I bought more things for myself than for anyone else. But how can you blame me -- I now have a fuzzy black peacoat and knee-high socks.

I'm going out later tonight with my family to see Eragon. I hope it's good -- I wasn't impressed by the book, but when I read it I thought it would make a better movie. Now I'm off to see if that's true...

Urgh, and I still have things to do! The word never stops...but if it did, I think that would be bad as well, so I suppose I shouldn't complain.

I want:

To be important

To be known by many

To change the world

To have purpose

To do something heroic

To fight the good fight

To live my life as best I can

To be a good person

To love others and to be loved by them in return

To write a book everyone will love

To do something to change someone in an important way

To make a difference

To write all of the stories in my head

To read all the stories I'm not clever enough to write

To laugh often

To learn from my mistakes

To be a better person every day than I was the day before

To make the right friends

To make the right enemies

To fight for Good

To figure out what Good is in this world

To be in the history books

To say things that need to be heard

To influence public policy

To learn what I don't already know

To never stop learning

To ask the right questions

To meet people who will change my life

To meet people whose lives I'll change

To be a person I can be proud of

To make others happy

To make myself happy

To find myself

To be myself

To save the world

To convince people that the world is worth saving

To be different

To have meaning