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I think the title says it all. Right now, I should be getting the rest of my homework done so that I can practice the speeches that I'll be giving all day tomorrow. But instead I'm sitting here listening to songs from Disney movies (because Disney rocks) and pretending that MUN does not exist.

...okay, so that didn't last too long. Granted, it's harder to think about it when I've got Megara from Disney's Hercules singing in the background...but somehow it gets itself in there. The problem is that tomorrow -- the speeches and SG voting -- should've come a long time ago in my opinion. I don't even know how much I care any more; I just want it all to be over. That's not good; that means that my passion for this is dying...and all because of the politics of it all.

The problem is that I know all of the candidates. For crying out loud, all but one are in my 7th period English class. I've codelegated with one of them to win a gavel. I've done Mock Trial with four of them. And one of them, I've know since we were both in the same kindergarten class.

Bonds like that don't stretch kindly.

And nothing that I've done has stretched them -- I don't want to make any enemies with this election. All I want is for the person who will do the best job to be elected. I want our program to do well. But while I've run through this with rarely anything less than good intentions, there are other candidates whose tactics have caused me to doubt them -- have caused me to value their character strength lower than I previously had. One is only running to steal votes from another one, because she dislikes him. Another doesn't even want the SG position, and is only running for it to gain popularity and ensure a win in the category of USG Specialized. Another told her friends she wouldn't run, then went back on her word and ran anyway. Even the boy I've known since kindergarten does not appear as worthy to me as he did at the outset of this campaign. At the moment, the only candidate for whom my regard has not decreased did not have a particularly outstanding amount of it to begin with.

I just hate what this election has done. I knew going into it that it would not be smooth...but I did not want it to be like this, I did not want to come out limp and lifeless at the other end of it. Now I question whether or not I truly want to be SG, a thing which I never would have questioned before.

Why does this have to happen the night before the speeches? Why does it have to happen at all, really? I wish that politics did not exist; I have no need for them, nor for politicans. In my ideal world, they would all be gone away.

"Never, never, never believe any war will be smooth and easy, or that anyone who embarks on the strange voyage can measure the tides and hurricanes he will encounter....Once the signal is given, he is no longer the master of policy but the slave of unforseeable and uncontrollable events." --Sir Winston Churchill

YAY CANDACE!

Date: 2006-02-09 03:26 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] spadleader88.livejournal.com
Wow...

Just imagine what it's like to run for governor, or even president.. the kind of pressure and low down tactics candidates do.

I'm very proud of you for not lowering yourself to their level. It's not easy to compete for something you really want (because you really do regardless of how you feel right now) and not take swipes at your opponents.

Win or lose, you still have your pride and self-respect, something the rest of them can never claim to possess after this campaign.

You have kept your dignity and that already makes you a winner in the game of life.

I am very proud to call you my friend.
~Steph*

Re: YAY CANDACE!

Date: 2006-02-09 03:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] spadleader88.livejournal.com
ok ok I give the Amazing Shannen Cravens credit for coming up with TWO, count them TWO, synonyms for me in this comment. But she's still amazing. lol.

Re: YAY CANDACE!

Date: 2006-02-10 12:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] readingredhead.livejournal.com
Steph, you are wonderful. Thank you so much for all of your support, and for giving me a bit of a big head for a moment or two. :) Again, thanks!

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Date: 2006-02-09 03:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fallenrose24.livejournal.com
Candace, in my eyes, dear, your dignity makes you the true winner no matter what the outcome. I only made you that logo because I had faith in the fact that you would not abuse what it stood for. I knew you would go through this election with the right attitude and you have not let me down in that belief. Whatever the outcome, you are already on top.

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Date: 2006-02-10 12:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] readingredhead.livejournal.com
Shannen, I think you know how much your words mean to me, but in case you don't, let me just say that your encouragement and support has been so helpful over the past few weeks. Again, thank you.

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Date: 2006-02-09 05:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bluephoenix8807.livejournal.com
Wow, whoever knew high school politics could be so dirty?

I support you Candace, even though I'm not in MUN, I just know you'll be superb at your position. I truly hope you'll win. Just thought I'd let you know that.

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Date: 2006-02-10 12:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] readingredhead.livejournal.com
Thanks, Richard. Your support, along with the support of the rest of my friends, has been helpful. It doesn't matter that you're not in MUN -- the thought is there, and it's what is making me feel better now.

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