College Decision
Mar. 31st, 2007 11:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
readingredheadI'm going to Berkeley. I sent in my Statement of Intent to Register yesterday. I tried to send out e-mails to all of you to let you know I'm all right, and what I've decided, but I'm realizing I don't have all your addresses so I figured I'd post up here, too.
Yesterday sucked, as far as days go, but everything's over and there's no turning back now. I don't think I need condolences or congratulations any more. At least I can talk about it without feeling like crying.
Last night the thought that kept going through my head was, "I worked my ass off for this?" But this morning, it's easier to realize the answer is "Yes, sort of." Because if I hadn't worked this hard, I don't know if I would have even gotten this far. It's one of those cases, I think, where setting high expectations might be more painful, but ultimately it allows for more personal growth. At least, this is what I tell myself.
So really guys, I'm okay. I hope you all are, too.
Yesterday sucked, as far as days go, but everything's over and there's no turning back now. I don't think I need condolences or congratulations any more. At least I can talk about it without feeling like crying.
Last night the thought that kept going through my head was, "I worked my ass off for this?" But this morning, it's easier to realize the answer is "Yes, sort of." Because if I hadn't worked this hard, I don't know if I would have even gotten this far. It's one of those cases, I think, where setting high expectations might be more painful, but ultimately it allows for more personal growth. At least, this is what I tell myself.
So really guys, I'm okay. I hope you all are, too.
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Date: 2007-04-01 12:38 am (UTC)When I got rejected I didn't post anything because I didn't trust myself to react as well as you have. Plus, I was at Kim's house, and was refusing to react at all because it was embarassing for me to have read the letter in front of someone.
What you said about personal growth is very true, but it's one of those truths that you already knew and don't really have (or sometimes want) to be told. Like if you are left by someone you love, and everyone tells you that eventually it will be okay. It's something that you know, because it makes sense, but it is very long-term and doesn't do that much to help you feel better right then. And sometimes you don't want to feel better right then (...or so I've read, I mean. *coughs*).
Maybe I shouldn't have written that much; this feels kind of personal to you, even though I understand exactly what you are saying. All I really meant to say was that I'm glad you are all right.