readingredhead: (Stranger)
One big thing to cross off my list: my Clarion application has been submitted and paid for. Now I don't hear anything from them until the middle of April, when I'll find out whether I've been accepted. I can't believe how far away that is! And yet I know there will be a billion things between now and then to keep me busy enough that the worries will hopefully not overpower me.
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Revised answers to the questions for the Clarion application.  Do these sound like me?  And do they make me sound good?

1. Describe your writing habits.

            When things like work and school don’t interfere, and sometimes even when they do, I write every day. Not always consistently on one project—I usually have several brewing in my head at a time—but always I write. When I fall in love with an idea, it consumes my fiction for a while and I pursue it intensely. 
            Stories usually come to me as characters, and I think that character is the most important element of everything I write. If I know who I’m writing about, I know what they’re likely to do, and when and where they need to live, and what has to happen to them. I like to spend a lot of time planning stories before I have to write them, but once I start actually writing a story, I tend to finish it within the week or else abandon it.
            I work best when I’ve got a deadline in sight and a group of supportive friends and fellow writers around me. I don’t need deadlines to write, but there’s something about the figure of a deadline—especially one shared by other friends and writers—that entices my ideas to coalesce in ways I never would have thought possible. I’ve participated in National Novel Writing Month for the past three years and my experiences have taught me that deadlines are important not just for motivational purposes, but also because they allow me to pace myself.

2. What do you hope to accomplish through Clarion?

            I hope to become more conscious of my own writing style in order to pinpoint specific weaknesses and develop methods of combating them. I also hope to come to a better understanding of my comfort zone within writing, so that I can try to expand beyond it. One of my specific goals is to work on telling more compact stories; at present, even my short stories tend to be long and rambling. I’m also looking forward to getting a new vantage point on the genres of fantasy and science fiction, as well as the opportunity to see what writing within these genres means to other writers. And of course, I’m looking forward to completing a short story or two over the course of the summer and having the chance to revise them with the assistance of feedback from other writers.

Any feedback appreciated.  These are the only things they hear about me on the application aside from my two short stories.  Thanks, everyone.
readingredhead: (Burning)
--more ID terms for Russian history
--pgs. 277-364 in Russian history reader
--read chapter 11 of Russian history textbook
--re-read Danica's short story and type up critique
--re-read Sonja's short story and type up critique
--finish writing tutor application
--choose short story #2 to submit for Clarion
--edit "Cold War, Cold World"
--submit Clarion application
--pick poems to submit to Berkeley Poetry Review (max. 4)
--submit poetry to Berkeley Poetry Review
--start brainstorming Chaucer paper topics
--read Hamlet again
--Chaucer reading for Monday
--cultural history of Russia timeline
--read Elizabeth's short story

I guess this means I got things done today.  I spent a few hours studying Russian history this morning with a woman from my class and got some stuff done, though now I've also got a lot more things to do.  We decided we'd go through the IDs early and we're doing a lot of preparation for things like the essays.  I'm meeting with her again Wednesday morning and we'll see how it goes from there.

Major list cross-off is that I finally figured what story I'm going to submit for Clarion along with "Fire and Ice."  Of course it's the one I was so certain I was least likely to send, but after I re-read "Cold War, Cold World" for the first time in I'm not sure how long, I realized that I like it.  It's rough in places but it's the easiest to patch over the course of the next week.  I can tell you a billion things that are wrong with it but hopefully people will get too caught up in the story to really care.  (Let's just say I'm glad I can't take this into my fiction class to get workshopped -- they'd rip it into small, predictable pieces.)

I've (of course and as usual) got other things to do.  I'm halfway through Hamlet again and it makes me think of Mr. Krucli.  I sent him an e-mail the other day to let him know how helpful his class has been for me.  Seriously, he's the reason why I'm making it through my Shakespeare class this semester.  Or at least one of the reasons.

I leave you on this note: A Knight's Tale (the movie) is so much funnier when you've read Chaucer.

Okay so I lied and I'm not needing you.  I need a better title for "Cold War, Cold World" and also anyone who feels they have enough time to read it between now and Tuesday to give me suggestions on what to fix should e-mail / comment / call so that I can send you the newest copy.  That's all.
readingredhead: (Red Pen)
Crap I have to do this weekend:

--more ID terms for Russian history
--pgs. 277-364 in Russian history reader
--read chapter 11 of Russian history textbook
--re-read Danica's short story and type up critique
--re-read Sonja's short story and type up critique
--finish writing tutor application
--choose short story #2 to submit for Clarion
--submit Clarion application
--submit poetry to Berkeley Poetry Review
--start brainstorming Chaucer paper topics
--read Hamlet again

It'll be nice to get the Clarion stuff done.  I still have no idea what story I'm submitting along with "Fire and Ice."  I've gotten so many mixed messages.  Before I had other people read my stuff I was so sure it would be "Potential Energy," but then no one else liked it as much as I did and Shanna sent it back to me with a really great critique that pointed out to me all the ways in which I could make it work so much better -- which is a nice way of saying she told me all the ways it wasn't working, and I know enough about writing to know her points were valid.

Then I pretty much have ruled out "The Free Way" simply because it's way ungainly at the moment and I don't have the heart to put it through a massive rewrite, especially when I'm not sure that's what it needs at all, at least not now.  At least, not for this.  Also I'm not sure I can do that in 6,000 words (though I probably could if I had to).

The technical aspects of "Staring into Space" make me dislike it for a few reasons (not to mention the fact that it feels too young to me, which is understandable since it's the first short story I ever wrote) but I recently revised it and it was at least feeling a little fresher.  At the same time, though, it's also slightly cliched in places.  It's more of a traditional sf piece.  At the moment that's the largest thing it's got going for it.

My father thinks I should send them "Cold War, Cold World" but I have a few issues with that, too (not the least of which being that it's also set somewhere extremely cold and obviously I can write things that are not set in the Arctic, thankyouverymuch, but I'd like that to show).  Dad thinks it's a strong showing because it demonstrates that I can do traditional sf.  I think it shows that I shy away from the elements of traditional sf that really matter -- the exact nature of the mysterious chemical, the action sequence when the hostages are rescued.  I like what might be termed the "trickiness" of the ending, but I don't know if that's enough to justify it as an inclusion.

I hate not knowing these things and having no way to judge them on my own.  I was hoping that a pattern would emerge from people's answers.  Well, a pattern did emerge -- Fire and Ice is really great and nothing else that you put next to it will look half as good.  Never in so many words but that's completely how it feels to me right now.  (And partly that scares me because I wrote "Fire and Ice" two and a half years ago, and I don't want that to have been my peak!)

Well.  I guess this means I'll just go along doing other things on the list until that's the only one I'm left with.  Usually this is a good idea.  I just hope that it will be this time.
readingredhead: (Default)
Questions from the Clarion application.  The only things other than the stories that they plan to read.  (Just so we're clear, these are rough, freewriting answers.)

Describe highest education (school, dates, degree)
-graduated Mission Viejo High School in June 2007
-currently enrolled at the University of California at Berkeley (August 2007-present)

Describe your writing habits. (What exactly do they mean by this?  I'm honestly not sure.)
When things like school and work don't interfere, I write every day.  Not always on the same project, but I make sure I've written something.  When I fall in love with a project, I pursue it intensely.  I've done National Novel Writing Month three times and it's taught me how to write every day, unfailingly, and then go back to edit later.  I write best when I've got a deadline in sight and a group of supportive friends and fellow writers to cheer me on.  This doesn't mean that I need deadlines to write, or to think about writing, but there's something about the figure of a deadline--especially one shared by other friends and writers--that entices my ideas to coalesce in ways I never would have dreamed possible.  I think a lot before beginning a story.  I do research about any aspect that I don't have personal knowledge about.  I really like to get to know my characters, and they're usually where a story starts for me.  With short fiction I'm pretty good at planning things, but I also don't like to stick to tightly to plots when something better shows up.  I usually write with a laptop but I carry a journal and a pen with me in every purse I own and you'll never find me without the ability to write.  When I'm blocked on my laptop, I banish myself to someplace with nothing but pen and paper and just write.

What do you hope to accomplish through Clarion?
I hope to strengthen my prose style while working specifically within the genres--fantasy and science fiction--that I enjoy the most.  College creative writing courses, from my limited experience, tend to focus on "literary fiction," disdaining other forms, and as such I have not had many opportunities to hone my craft specific to these genres.  I also hope to find a supportive community of writers interested in similar topics who will be able to give better criticism of my works than those who are not acquainted with sci-fi and fantasy.  (Also, let's be honest, I hope to learn how to get something published--how to write something so damn good that a publisher can't say no--except I'm almost positive that such a thing can't be taught.)  As far as craft goes, I'd specifcally like to work on telling more compact stories; even my short stories tend to be long and rambling, and that's something I'd like to work on.

List professional writers or Clarion graduates you know.
(I actually like this list very much.  I'm rather proud of it.  I just want to know what they plan to do with it!)
Julie E. Czerneda
Vikram Chandra
Melanie Abrams
Matt Miller

*sigh* I'm not even sure how I want to answer these, or how much space I get to answer them in!  Time will tell, I suppose...I know things will work out, and I shouldn't stress over this crap nearly as much as I ought to stress about my stories.  Because if I wow them with a story, it won't matter if my writing habits involve setting fire to the bedsheets, they'll want me.  And I oh so very much want them to want me.
readingredhead: (Stranger)
I’ve decided to apply for the Clarion workshop for sci-fi and fantasy writers. This means a lot of things. First, that there’s a good chance I’m insane. But second, and more importantly, that I need to submit two short stories as the bulk of my application. They have to be under 6,000 words each, which at the moment seems to be the hardest part for me, as two of my favorite short stories are significantly longer than this. I’m going to work with all of the stories I have on hand that even remotely fulfill the sff genre requirement.
 
This is the part where I ask for your help. Because first I have to pick the two stories that I’m going to focus on, and then I have to work with them, and in both of those stages I could really use a few (more than a few!) readers to provide me with feedback. I can’t underemphasize how important this is—how big an opportunity the Clarion workshop is. This is very close to being a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
 
So how can you help? What I’d like for you to do, if you think you have the time to help me, is this. I know a lot of you have had my stories foisted upon you at one point or another. In a comment, tell me if you’ve read any of the following stories, and if there are any you’d particularly like to read. I’ll e-mail you stories you’re interested in, and you can read them and get them back to me as soon as possible—the deadline to submit an application is March 1. Also, if you have recommendations for which two I should focus on, that would be great.
 
Here’s a list of the stories that are under consideration for this, with synopses and a few of my own personal thoughts about what their strengths or weaknesses in relation to this application might be.
 
Staring Into Space
Synopsis: A young girl, Mikra, loves science fiction and longs for the stars but lives in a world where spaceflight has been given up as a waste of time and money. When Mikra finds herself in a first contact situation, however, she is presented with a unique opportunity to remind more than one species of the role that science fiction plays in encouraging scientific discovery.
Strengths: It’s a good sociological science fiction story that, I feel, has a lot to say about what I think about sf and what it can accomplish.
Weaknesses: It’s the first short story I ever wrote, and as such it feels a little immature to me. I’ve since revised it, but it’s still got a bit of that youthful naïveté to it. Whether this is a bad thing to anyone other than myself, I don’t know. Also, as a personal pet peeve, it changes POV two-thirds of the way through. I still haven’t found a way to tell the story effectively without the POV shift, but that’s physical evidence of what I’d call the immaturity of this story.
 
The Free Way
Synopsis: Steph is a normal high school girl who hates the torment she endures daily in her PE class. Seemingly by chance during one of her classes, she discovers an entrance into an odd alternate world that she initially finds accommodating, but whose restrictions become more apparent over time. Eventually she realizes that she wants to leave this mock-world behind, but it’s a harder job than she’s bargained for.
Strengths: I think this story has a lot to say for the way I think about fantasy as a genre. It’s a lot closer to magical realism than true fantasy, and I like that about it. It involves normal people who end up in the middle of something approximating an adventure, which is my favorite aspect of fantasy.
Weaknesses: It needs a complete rewrite. It was the second short story I ever wrote, and it’s almost completely the opposite of “Staring Into Space”: it’s long-winded and expansive with its descriptions where it probably doesn’t need to be. Also, it’s about 9,000 words long and would be a bitch to condense.
 
Cold War, Cold World
Synopsis: A discovery of militarily valuable material in Antarctica results in several scientists being held hostage. A crack military intelligence team is developed in order to retrieve the hostages, using the newfound material to aid them. This is all part of an ongoing war between a unified American bloc and an Asian bloc jockeying for power over control of polar resources. Told from the POV of Jorge Álvarez, a private with a knack for making things work who gets recruited to the intel team for his mechanical knowledge.
Strengths: It’s a more mainstream sci-fi piece than “Staring Into Space,” and a little more mature and complex as far as its plot goes.
Weaknesses: I just never really fell in love with it. It’s alright, but I don’t feel like there’s anything spectacular about it. Also, it’s not based on very strong science, and I feel like there’s a reason that my first attempt at hard sf didn’t work out as well as I’d hoped. (Also, as a personal pet peeve, I don’t like the title.)
 
Fire and Ice
Synopsis: Told from the first-person POV of Aleska, a young woman in an isolated arctic society, this is a story of religious fanaticism taken too far. The settlement is governed by the Keepers of the Sacred Flame which the people worship, but the Keepers have been abusing their power to destroy any evidence of outsiders, including the isolation of anyone who questions their teachings (such as Aleska’s older brother).
Strengths: I finished “Cold War, Cold World” and then began on this immediately. To tell the truth, I fell in love with this story while I should have been ramping up the romance with “Cold War, Cold World.” And I think it shows. It’s complex, it shows rich worldbuilding abilities, and it’s really rather enthralling, if I do say so myself. My first major story about religious indoctrination and intolerance.
Weaknesses: It’s not quite science fiction or fantasy. In my head it’s sf because there’s a larger story behind the events of the plot as they’re understood by the main character and her society, but this doesn’t get revealed to the reader within the context of the short story. Also, it clocks in at around 7,500 words, and while it would be easier to slim this down than “The Free Way,” I feel like I’d have to lose more.
 
Potential Energy
Synopsis: Set in ancient Alexandria, it’s the story of a small group of elektromancers, people who can control electricity. Leading this group is Hypatia, who must alternately train new talent in the form of a young and foolhardy man named Lysander, and keep their shared powers a secret from the city’s growing Christian community that sees elektromancers as heretics. When Hypatia exposes her abilities in order to save a life, the repercussions are further-reaching than she expects.
Strengths: I’m more in love with this than I thought I would be. There are parts of it that I honestly enjoy, most specifically the characters and the concept of elektromancy. I think it’s a strong and unique fantasy story that would give a good sense that I’m capable of breaking out of the swords-and-sorcery box that so many young fantasy writers find themselves stuck within.
Weaknesses: The prose style seems pretty minimalist—get the job done and get out. There’s no beautiful language, no turns of phrase that still ring through my head, not even a single scene that I find immensely stirring or compelling. It doesn’t have low points as a story, but I’m not sure it has high points, either.

Just so we’re clear, when I say I’ll love you forever if you help me with this, I mean it.  People like Neil Gaiman are going to be teachers at this thing!  Eighteen students are accepted, and I really think that I can be one of them, but it’ll mean a lot of work, and the more people I can get to help me with this, the better.  

Well, now I’m off to dig up old contact lists of everyone I ever knew to ask them to help me with this!

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